Nightmares

 

Here I go again,

Catapulting myself in a life,

I didn’t bargain for,

How quickly,

Laughter turns to silence,

Conversation turns to criticism,

Walking on eggshells,

Just so no one says mean things to me.

Not what I was promised,

But broken promises never matter,

Kindness is funny,

A joke for the ages,

Something I’m not worthy of,

After a few months,

No longer worth trying to know,

You know everything,

Nothing left about me to learn. 

The magic from the start,

The boy who existed then,

Wanted to talk,

Wanted to work out fights,

Wanted to say I love you,

Gone, like a thief in the night,

While I beg to see him again,

Plead with God,

A better life,

One like the boy from the beginning,

Wanting to be known,

Wanting to love someone else,

Wanting effort,

Hoping for kindness,

Hoping someone hears me