Who are you?
Or who could you be?
Outside of the abandonment,
Underneath the idea that you were never the most loved thing in the room,
The boy who was never picked for the finale,
Always something to bide time with while waiting for better,
A good time, a play thing,
But never the object someone couldn’t live without,
A game you never win at,
A prize you’ve never known,
If you could be something to someone,
The all or nothing,
Would it even matter at all?
Fuck me like I’m your last fuck
Treat me like you’ll never be in anyone again
Eat me like you’ll spend the rest of your life starving
Need me like you’ll need this memory
Destroy everything that’s left
Hurt me like you’re going to miss me
Bruise me so I’ll remember
Make this be everything you need
All the unanswered words sitting on my tongue,
Waiting to slip and fall,
Hiding under lines about sex,
What would it take for you to love me?
What would it take for you to love,
Anything at all?
Where are you?
What does it take to reach you?
How do I shove my hand in there,
And steal your heart?
How do I make you remember,
More than just my body?
How do I grab the parts of you,
That no one else knows?
How do I whisper in your ear,
And you hang on every single word?
What does it take,
To make you belong to me?
Tell me a story
Let it begin with once upon a time
Make it a harrowing tale
Encompass every bad thing you’ve ever done
Every fucked up secret you own
Every shame you’ve ever known
Every scene you’re too scared to tell
Anything as long as it’s honesty
As long as the story ends with,
A tale of growth
Changes made, futures created
And that you’ve returned
To make me your home
Tell me it was all real, that you feel something
That it was always me, that I could’ve had all of you
Tell me that no one looks like I do,
That I’m impossible to resist
No one feels like I do, no one fits around you the way I do
Stretching for all of you, always, over and over
Tell me that no one’s voice is as sweet
Panting in your ear
Tell me that I’m so good, you’d die
For just the chance to watch me
Tell me that the thought of me
Makes you run to the closest participant,
Seeking release that’s never as good
Tell me you’d stop who you were doing
To worship at my alter
Tell me you’ve never wanted anything more
Tell me you felt anything at all
If I can’t have you,
Then I’ll make myself unforgettable to you
The silver blade of my knife sliding against your throat
So slick, so effortless, so easy
The last thing you’ll see is me
My gun to your head
Ruined for anyone else
Such a pretty girl, dripping for you
Delivering the fatal wound
No one else has to know
But you know
The smell, the taste
Everything you’re missing
As your blood flows
And I’m dying to harvest
Knowing you’ll never forget me
Wanna play Russian roulette
one last time
I’ll believe you want me
And you believe I won’t be the death of you
