Flashback or All Anger Comes From Being Hurt About Something

 

I’m dying to know why I’m always worth the trouble,

Yet never the intended prize,

Always a part of the game,

That I’ll swear I’ll avoid,

Always falling for a false hope,

Something that was never real,

Not matter how much you believe,

I burn down everything,

You burn down me,

I swear I’ll learn the lesson,

Until I hear your voice,

How am I good at reading people,

Until I see you,

I want so desperately to be known,

And you play so good at wanting to,

Then you go,

Only whisper when it’s dark,

Look when no one else is around,

Seek when you’re bored,

Less and less of you,

Enjoying everything but me,

Because you never really wanted me anyway

Clockwork

 

Here we go again,

Stuck in a cycle,

Where I believe every lie you tell,

For words so fucking beautiful,

They’re so fucking empty,

You make me feel so fucking special,

Until you have me exactly where you like me,

On the brink of jumping,

Wanting pieces of you that don’t last,

Maybe you’re not meant for forever, 

Maybe I’m just your toy,

Always so fucking sweet,

Until I’m melting, 

Right where you want me,

To have something waiting for you,

Something easy to ignore, 

To you I’m never worth more 

16 Lines

 

I don’t really write letters anymore, mostly because I don’t know what to say. But you, I miss you, I never stop thinking about you. I hope you see the messages I send you. I hope you know that I was never ever ashamed of you for any decision that you made, and I pray I always made you feel that way. You were always something to look up to for one reason or another. You are the most loyal bitch I have ever known. You were always a friend to me and you never, not one single time, made me feel judged. Something that I think is so rare and so fucking beautiful. When I broke down on the side of the road, I called you. When I needed to go spy on my ex, I called you. When that ex was something so painful I wouldn’t leave my dorm, you dragged me out to go grocery shopping with you. You took me on car rides, you blared music and sang with me, you answered when I called, you always cheered me on from the sidelines, no matter what. No matter what. You were the first friend I ever I said I love you too and the person who taught me that was okay to feel love for your friends. I miss you on my couch playing with my dogs, or gossiping on my bed with me, I miss you in the kitchen while I make you a sandwich (fuck the patriarchy). You created some of my best memories and you were there for the worst moments in my life, how does one ever repay debt like that? I hope you remember me for all the times that I was there and none of the times that I wasn’t. I hope you know how much I love you. I hope you remember me always down to have an adventure with you, I hope you remember me singing to you on a bus for eight hours straight because you were crying and sad, you are the only human who will ever hear me sing an ICP song or songs if we’re honest. I hope you remember me laughing with you because no single human in this life has ever been as funny as you. I hope you remember being welcome into my home with open arms no matter what. I hope that if I ever have kids, they are so deeply wanted and that wherever you are, you’re one of those people wanting them. You are the reason that I am half the bitch I am and I miss you. 

Similar but Is It Different?

 

What’s your biggest secret,

Tell me your darkest thought,

How fucked up are you,

What’s your filthiest fantasy,

What are you too scared to tell,

Let me know your worst moment, 

What makes you unlovable,

Scared of yourself sometimes,

Show me your biggest demon,

Let me see your shame,

Tell me how you broke your heart,

Things you’re too sad to tell,

Tell me the things you’ve never told 

All your ugliness on display,

For me 

Fallout

 

Tell me all the boring things that you want me for,

Tell me that happiness is more than just you between my legs,

Tell me that I’m more than that,

Tell me how pretty I would be in the kitchen,

Tell me it’s exhilarating to be in the car with me, windows down,

Tell me you’d die to talk to me while I soak in the tub, 

Tell me that watching movies with me is the perfect ending to your night,

Tell me that I’m not something for you to get bored of,

Tell me there are things inside of you that want me forever,

Tell me that I’m a good fit for you outside of my body melding with yours,

Tell me you like to run errands around town with me,

Tell me how you’ll know life with me would be enough,

Tell me that I exist for you, outside of sex,

Tell me why you’d still be there in the ashes,

Tell me what you’d want from me, after the world burns 

What’s Your Dreams Made Of?

 

Whisper in my ear,

The filthiest things I have ever heard,

Swirl your fingers through my wetness,

Play with me for a while,

Don’t you feel how wet,

All for you,

All because of you,

Make me feel all of you,

So deep that it’s the best pain,

Fill me all the way,

Tie me down so I’m always open,

Blindfold me,

Tease me,

Heighten every sensation,

Collar me and make me,

Tell me where you want me,

Put me where you need me,

Hear me whimper,

Make me moan,

Point my mouth in the right direction,

Show me how much you want me,

Tell me what you want to do to me,

Treat me like I was made just for your pleasure 

Cue the Blink-182 Song

 

Promise me you’ll always come,

Come and save me,

Come and rescue me,

Come in me every night, 

Promise me you’ll always stay,

Stay around,

Stay in love with me,

Stay buried in me,

Promise me you’ll always want,

Want me as your last,

Want me and no one else, 

Want me on my knees for you,

Promise me you’ll always need,

Need to know me,

Need to look at me, 

Need to remember how I feel inside,

Promise me you’ll always come,

And I’ll be the last stop you’ll ever need 

Schrödinger's Cat

What’s the difference between love and obsession,

How do you tell the difference in your soul,

What’s another plaything to you,

A chase, a dance, a stalk,

Do you love something because you don’t have it,

Or do you love it because it’s crucial to you, 

Obsession feels like fire,

Yearning, wanting, needing,

Love is always alive until you have to look at it,

Do you want anything permanently,

Have you ever,

Am I beautiful until you possess me,

Then do I dull,

Hair not so shiny,

Laughter that’s not so musical, 

Sex that will never be as good,

No matter how much your hand wraps around my throat,

Or am I the never ending adventure,

Heart stopping and soul crushing,

How do you never notice anyone again 

Bomb Detonation

 

I can feel every atom,

Every molecule,

Every piece of me splitting,

Breaking wide open, 

Some pieces of me coming alive,

Some experiencing death,

Voices in my ear,

All disagreeing,

Every part of me aching,

I’m half the universe, 

And half you,

Dying to be remembered,

Dying to see the alternate world,

Leaving moments of me everywhere,

Pulled in different directions 

Just Like.a Woman

 

Tell me you want to wrap your hand around my throat,

Tell me you want to lay on the bed beside me, 

listening to me read,

Tell me you want to lick down my spine tattoo,

Tell me you want to see me in the kitchen 

making your favorite meal,

Tell me you want to nibble my ear and suck my neck,

Tell me you want to sing along with the windows down,

Tell me you want to swirl your finger around me,

Tell me you want to cat-nap on the couch 

with a movie in the background,

Tell me you want to feel my hand wrapped around you,

Tell me you want to watch me while we grocery shop, 

Tell me you want to feel my mouth all over you,

Tell me you want to experience the version of me 

at home with no makeup, 

Tell me you want to bury yourself inside me,

Tell me you want all of it,

Tell me regular life isn’t boring,

Tell me it’s happiness to watch me,

Tell me it’s all of me and just me 

Tell Me Everything is Always Real pt. II

 

What is bliss, 

How wet I always got for you, 

How I looked under you,

How much I wanted you,

Am I the object of affection,

The dreams in your head,

The whisper in your brain,

Or am I the fleeting fantasy,

The temporary obsession, 

The conquest of all conquests,

Until someone else whispers your name, 

Until you can’t resist again,

But with a new pet, 

What do you burn the world down for,

What’s your forever need, 

What gets you so hard,

You can’t come down, 

What’s the point of bliss,

If it’s always met with the possibility of 

Someone else