Look After You

 

Is loneliness the feeling

When I’m apologizing to my dogs,

Promising them a better life. 

The feeling of crying outside,

So no one hears, 

No one ever hears. 

The feeling of watching movies, 

Alone and isolated.

The feeling of being too much,

For anyone else.

The feeling of being a burden,

Due to a different life lived.

The feeling of not understanding,

How to do it correctly. 

The feeling of being scared, 

Of giving space,

The feeling of not asking too much,

So you can’t be left. 

The feeling of wanting connection,

With unknown feelings of how to achieve it.

The feeling of you’re always better in theory,

Never in person,

Never in actuality. 

Fantasy you never has too many expectations,

Never has too many wants,

Never is too much, 

Always a dream,

Never the thing not worth it,

Never the thing that feels lonely.