I Know You Won't Agree With This But You Don't Read It Anyways

Every night you lay down beside me,
I tuck you in, cover you up.
Do you need anything?
How about some water, are you thirsty?
Some nights you let me drift off peacefully,
You rub my back, play with my hair.
Some nights you keep me up,
Whispering secrets to me as the hours go by.
I tell you my hopes and dreams.
They always make you giggle.
I tell you about a new boy,
You tell me I'll never be good enough
for a good man.
You tell me that if I keep dating guys that hurt me,
I can't hurt them.
I tell you I want to help people,
You ask what I ever did for you.
I ask you to leave,
Please go to the closet where
everyone else's skeletons live.
But you take my hand and pull
me back into bed with you.
The worst of lovers.
You wrap your arms around me,
Tell me it'll be okay,
Tell me you'll always be there,
You'll never leave me,
I'll never have to be alone.
I give in to you, I succumb,
I know no other way.
And then,
Just so I don't forget who I am,
You look me dead in my eyes
While you light that fire
Run it under your spoon,
Instant high.
You're my favorite destruction you tell me,
And I cry myself to sleep.

Here's to 2017

The idea that something good was only one magic step away.

The idea that some things never change, and the hope that some do. 

The idea that love is hard, but holy shit, the reward. 

The idea that someone's skin can be the most beautiful thing you've ever seen, and to touch it is the idea of human comfort.

Here's to feelings that we thought were lost, only to be found, and lost again. 

Here's to the child-like wonder that comes from discovering love for the first time in a long time. 

Here's to the idea of believing in the blonde boy more than you've ever believed in anything. 

Here's to the idea that it doesn't matter how you get to Sunday, as long as you get there. 

The idea that the only thing the soul needs at the end of every day is just to laugh. 

The idea that people can sweep you away, just like a hurricane, the prettiest natural disaster ever seen. 

Here's to all the secret stolen moments that didn't belong to us in the first place, but we made ours. 

Here's to all the nights where the only thing that mattered is the emotion that overwhelmed us. 

Here's to late night car rides filled with music that was everything to us. 

Here's to the mornings where we weren't fully awake yet, but still found each other's company. 

Here's to the idea that love would outlive us all. 

Here's to all the moments where anger should've been squashed and hearts should've healed. 

Here's to all the harsh words that were never meant. 

Here's to waking up and finding a way to fall in love all over again, everyday.

2017 was filled with the regret that kindness and understanding did not prevail over everything. 

But how can you really regret a year filled with the idea of love in the air and feet dirty with adventure. 

And for 2018, the idea that love comes, and is not required to stay. But we are made of pure Earth with hearts that come from the cosmos, and there are things inside of us that will always outlast time. 

The idea of giving your heart, completely recklessly, with no abandon, even if it's only just once. The notion that someone will come and when they do, they can have everything and you will hold nothing back. 

Heroin, Part II

Is this how you felt? 

The only place you find comfort,

The only place you can breathe, 

The only place you can feel okay.

A high so good, 

You can feel it on your lips, 

Taste it on your tongue, 

Know it in your toes.

But then, 

The downfall, 

A withdrawal to end all withdrawals, 

The kind that ends with a million 

Little holes, 

The kind that don't repair.

The kind that makes boys addicts, 

And girls drown their sorrows. 

I May Never Sleep Again

Can you sleep at night?
Can you sleep,
Knowing my heart aches to
Beat inside yours,
Knowing all I want is to
Hear your voice and see
Your name on my screen,
Knowing all I want is
Your heart,
Not just the parts of you
That fit inside me,
Knowing I want to be your forever,
Knowing food no longer
Fits inside my stomach,
Knowing my eyes fall like rain
Every night,
Knowing I am literally half
The person I was,
And you,
You hold all the power,
One snap of your fingers
Could fix my world again,
But you hesitate,
Knowing I'm dying without you,
Do you feel anything for me now,
Please come home tonight.

How About Shouldn't Take What Isn't Yours?

How does it feel?
To watch him be haunted,
By something so beautiful?
Do you think he's ever seen you?
He closes his eyes,
When you kiss,
When you touch,
When you fuck.
Now you tell me,
Why do you think that is?
You teach ABC's,
I speak the words of the soul.
You won,
But did you really?
I'll always be there,
Taking up the space you want.
So tell me,
How long does it take to die?
Loving a man who loves me?

They Will All Eventually Have Titles

Tell me who you are.
Tell me what makes you tick.
Do you like the sound of rain?
Or do you prefer the sun?
Do you eat dessert for breakfast?
Or breakfast for dinner?
Is coffee what you crave in the morning?
Or is your first thought a nicotine fix?
Do you sleep peacefully?
Or do you lay awake tormented?
Do your skeletons dance in the closet?
Or do ghosts hide under your bed?
Do you prefer the storm?
Or revel in the stars?
What do you need to get through your day?
And do you think I could ever be one of those things?

Quit Appropriating Rape Culture

Pull your skirt down,
Pull your shirt up.
Don't ask for it.
Keep your mouth shut,
Not too many opinions.
Don't ask for it.
Cut your music down,
Play something softer.
Don't ask for it.
Don't wear red lipstick,
How about pink instead?
Don't ask for it.
You can't say that,
Those aren't appropriate words for women.
Don't ask for it.
Have more self-respect,
You can't post that.
Don't ask for it.
You can't smoke that,
Put that bottle down.
Don't ask for it.
You can't be friends with her,
They call her a slut.
Don't ask for it.
Don't sleep with that guy.
Don't be seen with this one.
Don't ask for it.