Maybe we just shouldn’t be together anymore.
Maybe tomorrow you’ll be nicer.
Maybe some day soon you’ll have a change of heart,
And treat me different.
Maybe this is all a ploy for revenge.
What would happen if I ran away?
If you love someone, why don’t you want to be nice to them?
Why am I only important when I cry?
Do I deserve this?
Is this gaslighting?
Are my emotions and feelings irrelevant because I’m a woman?
Do men really not want to hear me talk?
Are men mean because they think you’re too independent?
Why am I always perceived as angry or in a bad mood,
If I’m not happy and rainbows and sunshine?
Why do I feel like if I just sat down and looked pretty,
I’d be liked more.
Would I be treated this way if other people were around?
Is this because I’m not helpless enough?
Maybe I attract toxicity.
Why is everything I feel wrong?
Do men understand what sounds ugly to a woman?
There was that one time, with that one post,
Where, how, if men hit walls,
It’s because they want you to know,
How much they want to hit you.
Why are anger problems a justifiable excuse?
Why are you unable to handle your emotions,
But I am expected to?
Why is it okay to say I can’t take this,
Every time you fight with someone?
Does treating someone like this really feel okay to you?
Maybe some men don’t know how to argue,
Or face their demons,
Or take responsibility,
Or care about you beyond the effect it has on themselves.
If someone takes the problems you have with them,
And spits your lines back out to you,
Is that gaslighting?
Maybe men just want to control you.
No one gets to decide what faces I make,
What am I allowed to say,
Whether or not I can leave my house,
Except me.
Maybe some people don’t know what love is.
Maybe some people don’t care what love is to you.
Why do people always say they are going to change, but never
do?
Why do men expect you to notice their every mood shift,
When they never see how upset you are?
Maybe men don’t really care about your mental health.
Maybe you’re only worth being nice to if your legs are open.
Do my dogs get scared?
Do they feel safe here?
Why don’t I feel valued?
Why does everything I do get questioned?
Do I not have the right to play on my phone?
Do I not have the right to be on my own laptop?
Do I not have the right to not answer the cell phone
That I pay for?
Why do I get treated like I’m shady?
I don’t even lie.
If someone is only nice to you,
When you’re not upset or angry,
Are they really nice?
